GETTING STARTED WITH MY JOURNEY.......again

Every year I make the same New Year’s Resolution to lose weight.  And every year I never seem to lose the weight I need to lose.  I mean when I first realized I was going to be a grandma for the first time in 2003, I weighed 475lbs.  I did not have a lap for my new grandbaby to sit on when they got to this world so I decided to lose some weight.  I was walking, eating less food, trying to cut out bad food.  This did work for a bit.  I got down to 350lbs in about two years. 

Then I seem to hit a stale mate.  Could not seem to lose any more weight, got depress, and got to where I did not care.  I did not gain any weight, but I did not seem to lose any weight either.  I stayed this way for almost six years.  Just got to where I did not care either way.  By this time it was around March of 2011.  I was living with my youngest daughter and her husband to help take care of my 2 grandbabies. (Two girls.) and one on the way.  (Another girl)  Because of my health and other things going on, I had decided I wanted to live on my own in my own place.  I also got to where I needed help with my every day needs.  So I hired a caregiver to come in and help with my needs.  .

The person who came to work for me was fantastic.  Her name was Lydia.  She was a little older than I was but we had a lot of things in common.  Both of love to craft and we got along great.  When I told her I use to weigh 475 and I was down to 350, she asked me how I did it.  I told her and she was surprised to find out I was not using any special diet.  I was telling her, I knew what I needed to do to lose weight, but did not know how to make or cook any kinds of veggies.  Lydia told me she knew a lot of different ways to fix veggies that was not fatting.  She also introduce a lot of new veggies to me.  So with her help I got back on track and started to lose weight again.  I was doing so well, I got down to 255.  I even went out and got me some new clothes. 

But at this time I had some health problems that had been on going for some time.  So in the year of 2010 I had surgery on my left shoulder, a left knee replacement, and 2011, planters factious, and set back with my kidneys and my blood disorder.   And to make matter worse, I fell February 6, 2014 and broke my knee replacement and shattered my femur.  And I mean shattered.  I now have a long rod and 6 pins in my left femur.  I am still in physical therapy just to learn to use my left leg again.  Can not walk very well.  For a long time was in a wheel chair, and could not walk more than 10 steps before I had to sit down.  Plus I have a bladder problem where I have to go to the bathroom all the time and can not always make it.  So I have to teach my bladder again.  And because of all of this, I kind of lost my way and started to gain my weight back.  Seems like it came back on faster than I lost it.  Plus I moved back to California a couple of years ago to live with my oldest daughter and her husband.  It is not easy being here, but it is better than being on my own since I really do not have the money to live on my own.  I miss my grandkids in Idaho, but I do get to see my grandkids here in CA.  My grandson and granddaughter from my son.

Soooooooooo……………………January 6, 2015.   As of this morning I weighed 355 pounds.  (Yep, I gain it all back from when I started a few years ago.)   And I can not do the kind of exercises I use to do cause I can not stand on my left leg much less walk on it.  Plus I notice when I get bored, I want to eat.  Not good when you want to lose weight.  And to make matters worse, I really do not have the money to eat the way I want to eat.  So I have to eat what my daughter fixes me and she does not understand what it is to eat healthy.  I mean she thinks eating rice, or potatoes every night with dinner is healthy.  She does not want to learn about proper eating habits.  She always uses her husband as an excuse cause he does not have any teeth so he has to eat soft food.  YUCK!!!!!!

So tomorrow I am going to try to do my best to eat the best I can.  I need to keep busy so as not to go hunting looking for something to eat.  I have a lot of craft projects to do and if I can keep busy I will not be so tempted t0 g0 eat something.  I need to stitch a square for the quilt, scan a book, and paint my clip board for my painting group that I will go to on Saturday. 

So  I am inviting you to go on this journey with me of losing my weight, get all of my projects done, and learn to quit procrastinating.  And if any one as any suggestions or has any questions please add it in the remarks and will see what happens.